She Was Her Own Leader…

by Gillian Wightman
www.eastneuktherapies.co.uk

I would like to share a beautiful Inner Theatre experience regarding a client suffering chronic anxiety, with a deep fear of hospitals and constant paranoia about having a serious illness.

She started by being aware that behind the door [to her sacred space] there had to be in an open space, so we tapped for that (a closed space would be claustrophobic) till she felt safe to go through – where she was by a lake in the mountains. She did not want to see or remember anything, so we tapped on honouring how painful it had been and how hard it would be to see what might appear, but allowing whatever needed to heal to come forward. Her mother appeared beside her.

With her mother she revisited the memory or being left alone in hospital. We then switched to the inner child work as this was all more feelings than seeing anything, just a strong sense of anger and outrage, and we let that child express herself until she was able to see that her mother had never abandoned her, she had come back, and the hospital had saved her life and perhaps they knew best, or even if not they were doing what they believed was best. She had been at deaths door so she felt gratitude to them and now felt a deep sense of connection. We finished with her being aware of this baby being held safely in her mothers arms. When she was ready to come away she felt a great sense of peace and safety, that she had what it took as an adult to be safe without her mother, knowing that her mother had indeed always been there, and she had been living with the feeling of a baby for most of her life. So we tapped for her regret for that. She felt a great sense of peace and calm and all the stomach pain she had (her original problem was gastroenteritis) had settled down.

I offered a visualisation in her stomach of an army (her nervous system). She indicated that they had been running around in mad confusion with no leader. Then they all laid down and refused to move. At the end they were getting up, relaxed, but altered, brushing themselves down, and she knew they were ready to listen to her higher self. She was her own leader and would respond appropriately when needed, but in the meantime her army was relaxed. We then had to tap for her fears that this was too good to be true, and I invited the part to come forward that was telling her this. This part was the one who had been going for weeks of CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) without relief and they told her not to come back as she was not doing it properly. We allowed her to express all her anger and upset, and she realised she had not failed, they had just not discerned the presence of this terrified, abandoned, angry baby. Now she had been healed, she checked back in and the baby was giggling, and laughing. She realised this process was indeed beneficial, and one she could continue to work with.

I am grateful for all the tools I have gained from you Betty and Jade.

Lots of love,
Gillian Wightman
East Neuk Therapies, Scotland
www.eastneuktherapies.co.uk